apologies

apologies
yeah
i make em
minimizing
my reactions
disengaging
my feelings
from my actions.
apologies
you accept them
letting me bow down
kiss your feet
as you stomp
on the burden
i bare
i give away
my rights
human being
perfection
another myth
i put faith in.
your apology
i despise
a sacrificial
excuse
a frame
for abuse
yet I persist
in engaging
in the exchanging
of this
divisive mora
timid tone
not my own
an adaptation
crucified
by conditioning
and second guessed
estimates
tears of shame
pour onto
ice
indecision
renders
infection
a price
i pay
with passive
aggressive
currency
the energy
from foreign
entities
a likeness
a loveliness
a ridiculed
resistance
to authenticity
anxiously awaiting
acceptance
ego takes
the gift
and uses it
for resentment
cycle
circle
system
induced
a birth
a soul
reduced
to sorry

2.20.09
me