Love this quote. A spiritual teacher, disguised as a friend, sent it to me.

You are not just an individual. You are culture incarnate. As an evolving self, you are the manifestation of a collective conditioned way of seeing and responding to life. This is why your conscious evolution matters so much. When you, as an individual, start using your own will to activate higher potentials within yourself, in a small but not insignificant way cultural evolution starts happening through you. A momentum is generated—a vertical momentum toward that which is new. And when the individual feels that momentum, it’s experienced as liberation. Most of us live in what I call a horizontal plane—an emotional and psychological and cultural worldspace that is made up only of what has already happened and what already exists. We rarely, if ever, experience true verticality, which is the rising up and emergence of that which is new. So when vertical momentum is generated, you realize that you are going somewhere at the level of consciousness. And it’s not just you; to some degree, culture itself is moving through you. When you know that’s possible and you experience it directly, it’s like someone has given you the key that unlocks the door to the future.

the reason

So. I recently re-discovered The Son-Rise program. I watched videos filled with success, love and acceptance. I realized that this is the reason I write poetry, the reason I want to be more aware, the reason I adore the people in my life and sometimes the reason I act so passionately on both ends of the spectrum...the reason is Love. I want more. I want to create more. Even at my very best, NOW...I have so much to learn about truly loving everyone. Acceptance. What a gift and a challenge.

Love is the reason. Some days are more fulfilling than others.

Imagine.

http://www.autismtreatmentcenter.org/document.php?sectionid=18&documentid=19&mediatype=video&mediaid=21&part=0

goin' to Sweden

http://www.stanswartz.com/SwedenPresentation/supportingliteracy.html

My latest Neuronerd topic - Oxytocin

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Oxytocin

Hmmmm....said to aid in Autism but look...sold as pitocin. Could there be a link between Pitocin administered during birth and the malfunction of the pituitary and the creation or absorption of this hormone??? Dude...this is the key. Now this will be my next crazy nerd neurological study...diving in. See you someti...me when I discover more. Thank you Kyle's treehouse.

One of the many reasons why I am not a Christian

Virginia Christian Action...you are stuck in the Old Testament times and have your heads up your asses. So tired of idiotic rationale from right-winged extremists. If this doesn't apply to you then you shouldn't be offended. Sincerely ME...an atheist.
Read this if you can stomach it.
http://www.newsleader.com/article/20100222/NEWS01/2220318

today I learned from the NY Times

That the Dutch gov't due to collapse, will be pulling troops from Afghanistan by the end of 2010. And that the US/Obama has been pressuring NATO for more support there. Please read yourself on this issue. I believe it puts our troops at a huge disadvantage...which I have already heard from the source itself...ie...members of, or family members of troops there.

also...in local (US) news...read this. http://www.nytimes.com/2010/02/21/us/21govs.html?ref=us. We were actually invited to hang w/Ms. Gregoire...GO WA!!! Many of my family members work for the state of WA and the cuts have been deeeeeep. Duval Patrick says we are ok in Mass. but the school cuts here seem to be a concern to residents.

Have an informed week.

Hello all. My sister forwarded the link for a local news series on Autism. Thank you for forwarding Laurie. This is a glimpse of life for families like ours. We were blessed while in WA to have Dr. Bryan King, the doctor interviewed in the "unlocking" segment, as my son's psychiatrist. Seattle Children's and UW medicine have been great resources for us. Dr. King is a well-known autism specialist in the medical field throughout the world and autism is still quite a mystery to even him and many of his colleagues. As you can see...he gives the comparison of the big sea, little boat scenario...so true. What can be done? In my opinion, so many things.
It starts with understanding, and changes w/action. Our votes...the way we teach inclusion...the way we treat EVERYONE. I hope you'll watch these and consider your part. We need your support. Its lonely and overwhelming at times...in fact...most of the time. The extra care you take to love and accept our family never goes unnoticed...and drives change. Insisting on a new paradigm...we must. Please watch this sequence and consider it a step toward change. We need you.

Take care.


http://www.king5.com/home/Childrens-Healthlink-special-The-World-Within-Northwest-Stories-of-Autism-80300292.html

apologies

apologies
yeah
i make em
minimizing
my reactions
disengaging
my feelings
from my actions.
apologies
you accept them
letting me bow down
kiss your feet
as you stomp
on the burden
i bare
i give away
my rights
human being
perfection
another myth
i put faith in.
your apology
i despise
a sacrificial
excuse
a frame
for abuse
yet I persist
in engaging
in the exchanging
of this
divisive mora
timid tone
not my own
an adaptation
crucified
by conditioning
and second guessed
estimates
tears of shame
pour onto
ice
indecision
renders
infection
a price
i pay
with passive
aggressive
currency
the energy
from foreign
entities
a likeness
a loveliness
a ridiculed
resistance
to authenticity
anxiously awaiting
acceptance
ego takes
the gift
and uses it
for resentment
cycle
circle
system
induced
a birth
a soul
reduced
to sorry

2.20.09
me

lovesong

sing me a field I can run thru
build me a bicycle for all
blaze trails that bridge humanity
let the goshawks hear our call

breathe the air, strong and distant
that fuels the flame of the wise
fly to the edge of a cliche
scream visions to the sunrise

run alongside the wolf pups
reflect on the wooded hue
ring the bell of redemption
exposed by the morning dew

perfect the vision of love
push thru conflicted bounds
make instuments of insult
and peace your only sound

us...11/22/09

Salty Aftertaste

Twenty days later
I sing with loss.
A quick toss
to the wind
and like the salt
of my many tears
held inside,
I ride the wave
of the breeze
and hope for
a landing
in the promised land.
By whom
I cannot define,
nor resign to
believe.
I know the swine
may reap this
burried treasure.
A pleasure
so hidden,
even the wind
has no clarity.
Still I travel.
I learn of love
from centures
and ventures
unlike my own.
And in my zone
I weep for you.
Heat and dew
entrench me.
A wretch.
I catch a glimpse
of paradise
and like Moses,
I am led away
with intended
Shame.

Nameless.

I believe that
heaven
must not house
leaders.
Only sheep
find solice
from their
eternal suffering
there.

The sheperds
and the ravens
take flight,
beyond the sight
of desert shores.
The extraordinary
greets us with
open arms.
Piercings with charms,
rainbows, farms and
indiginous masses
swim the streets
of Dharamsala.
The celebration
ongoing.
A still
knowing
settles us all.
We are awake.

2/20/10 me

Tea Party

As the term passed over my head, I drowned in a sea of innadequacy. If I were to read, instead of check Facebook statuses...Had I created a time for The New York Times and I to share coffee...In the event that I hope to discuss the pending actions of our elected officials with one of the hottest men I have ever met, then perhaps I should CHANGE.

Barrack Obama cannot be our poster child for change. We must embrace the change. I must make changes relevant to the life I desire. A lack of desire is exactly as it sounds...dead. I am alive and creative. Therefore, I must be the change I wish to see in the world. Blah, blah, blah! What does that mean?

I posed the question aloud and within my "brushfire" starter soul..."How can I reach those who may want similar change?" "Where do people like me...the under-educated, slightly politically active, largely opinionated minority spend their time?" And, "What motivates us?"

As I crawl thru this subject, like a reluctant spelunker slides thru a space with less than two inches of room for lung expansion and more than four gallons of water pouring thru it per second, I relate to the balls-out manner in which this decision must take place, ie. FAST and FURIOUS! Just DO it! Go for it. Be aggressive B - E - Aggressive. B.E.A.GG. RrrE.SS.I.V.E! An Extreme Freedom Sport moment...Go BIG or Go HOME!
So, here I am. Blog started...check. Topic chosen...check. Find audience and FREAK them out so they act...??? Next.

When I asked my friend, the very hot, politically saavy man crush how he thought people could be reached, he simply opened my eyes to the "spend one half hour per day reading The New York Times gig." So there is where I continue this journey.

Aloha.